As I sit here with a dead battery, waiting for roadside assistance before I can make my trip up to Woodford for another year, I figure, why not reflect and share my gratitudes now?

Choose joy, find balance, and rediscover the beauty of life's simple pleasures on a transformative journey.

I am LOVE. I give it all back, all that is not mine, not in resonance, projected at me, upon me, now or in the future.

So many say they want to do the work, get better results, change their life… Yet, do the same things, Hang around the same people, Continue the same habits, Talk about the same problems. I used to be.

I'll REMIND you that YOU have ALL the answers you need withIN, if you're willing to LISTEN. And you get to CHOOSE what feels good FOR YOU & what you're willing to take on as YOUR TRUTH.

I opened my eyes and the rain started. I closed ceremony after feeling more activated in my body than I had in weeks. I stepped out onto the grass with my bare feet, And I danced in the rain.

Surrendering to my soul as my ego died again. Done with the unconscious pain I constantly put myself through out of fear and outdated programs. The resistance I put myself through unnecessarily.

I'm ready to RECEIVE all that is waiting for me once I prepare my body for this remembrance. No more running Queen. No more excuses. No more distractions. This is all that is left. Claim it.

I will allow you to raise your voice and be heard, even when your truth hurts and it pains me to hear. I will do what it takes for you to know you are seen and to always see you.

The version of me where what happened no longer exists, What made me once strong is not energised and the stories no longer told, to inspire.

I mourn the parts of me that have been shattered, never to return, Only for the comfort it brought, (yes, breaking the comfort zone)! I'm now free falling into the unknown, with myself, for myself.

I choose sovereignty. I choose to exercise my power and my voice. My body is mine and it has taken me a very long time to reclaim it.

The universe is supporting me in creating my new reality: no more lower vibrational environments no more prospective men from those environments no more spending money in that paradigm

STOP FUELLING IT, she reminded herself Just stop, she whimpered Her inner child crying, unsafe once more Her inner teen boiling, ready to defend again

I deeply love you soldier, warrior, she wolf of solitude. But she wolf - it is time to return to your pack.

In the past, I would have reacted. I likely would have been extremely intoxicated too and blamed the other person for how I felt.

It is overwhelming to FEEL so much in my chest, It is unnerving to be this open and vulnerable because of old wiring, conditioning and experiences.

For 18 months I've been reprogramming my stories. I've been looking at where I made life hard. Yes, I.

I could be angry. I certainly do have moments where I am... Are you yet?

I have realised my journey is mine, my beliefs are my own and to respect and allow others to live (and die) by theirs.

Today was the start of a new chapter in my life. It has been the biggest journey in detachment. The great unveiling of so much more. The letting go of how I 'should do' pretty much everything.

Today, I realised I'm addicted to the pain! There is so much comfort in it for me. This is the suffering loop, of childhood trauma imprinted as 'normal'. Though IT'S NOT normal!

'I don't have a choice?' The BS statement I tell myself when I don't want to take accountability or responsibility. The reality is I do have a choice and not deciding IS STILL A CHOICE!