I am Fierce, I am She Wolf

Sometimes I am full roaring lioness, masculine, high octane, all in, f#@king fierce warrior goddess.

I am full grit, hustle and grind in my passion to serve, show the f#@k up, lead, inspire, contribute and just live my best life.

I can sometimes be savage in my calling, sacrificed in my time, whilst I serve at my highest capacity.

Sometimes I need to call me the f#@k out when I get TOO driven, too forced, too blinded by how much I want to serve rather than just BEING and just SERVING, in the now.

Sometimes my guilt in being a single Mumma, my ego in wanting to prove others wrong, whilst striving for greatness and perfectionism that doesn't exist, can kick my a55.

And so it should.

But it has it's place and these are valuable lessons I need to STOP, embrace my feminine and calm the f#@k down, to be able to see, hear and feel into these things.

With love.

I am still human.

I do make mistakes.

Shadow still needs light.

But, I am committed to ME.

I am committed to my truth.

And I am committed to showing up FOR ME and for the young man who choose me, to lead and inspire HIS independence and his BEING in this life.

Yes, I am a fierce, wild child, pocket rocket.

I embrace the masculine that be and the wolf within.

But I honour my feminine (something that has taken me a long time to do), I give her the love and nurture she needs.

I love and honour the wolf within but say a big f#@k you to the lone wolf that was conditioned upon me.

And I say that with deep love and kindness.

F#@k you meaning I see you, I love you, I have f#@ked all of you, as you have me.

You served me well and served me then, but serve me no longer.

The lone wolf within me that felt alone, isolated, that was forced to do things on my own, for myself (and Jake).

I deeply love you soldier, warrior, she wolf of solitude.

But she wolf - it is time to return to your pack.

You were born to be as one, for one, united to stand together and together we rise.

F#@k you is the pain and is the pleasure, for there has been much of both.

The f#@kery that was such a mask of pleasure that inflicted so much pain.

The unf#@kery of f#@k you, is to love, to adore, to honour and to be true to myself.

To love me, rather than f#@k me, ALL THE TIME.

As fun as that was at times...

That party is over.

Self destruct, the f#@king of myself, the old story that I am only as good as someone willing to f#@k me, and generally the royal f#@king up of all things, in my heightened masculine, ice queen, stone cold state... that's lone wolf's story.

My pack is and will be.

We BE united.

I stand for the she wolf within me, that is individual magic, character and BEING, as I join my pack and as we stand united, collective in our consciousness and bring back the tribe.

I am ready to stand for an awakened pack of wolves, leading by example, showing up for self and giving our best to others!