Magic of my Heart

I'M SO DONE WITH FREIGHT TRAIN MOMENTS

I'M DONE WITH DERAILING MY LIFE

I'M DONE WITH HAVING TO LEARN THROUGH HARD & PAINFUL LESSONS

In the last couple of months, I've made two massive decisions.

Decisions I wouldn't have previously made when I did.

There was no pain, discomfort.

No real NEED to create the change, as like I have in the past.

Life wasn't the freight train moments of derailing as I knew pivotal, life changing moments to be.

Previously, it was only in those moments of the greatest pain that I would finally surrender and do the work.

Allow the time, space and invest in the change.

Because I had nothing left and no other choice.

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For 18 months I've been reprogramming my stories.

I've been looking at where I made life hard.

Yes, I.

The moments where I ignored the signs, witnessed old patterns play out, sabotaged, created meanings and stories to validate my old existence/identities/life.

I've brought the greatest level of awareness to all of this.

Next level self responsibility.

Called in accountability partners, invested in coaches, healers, dived into medicine journeys.

I have dived so deeply in connecting with my feminine and meeting her, loving her, honouring her and seeing her.

Understanding her strength rather than feeling her vulnerability and labelling it as weak.

I've done so much work to call myself forward and start creating WHAT I DO ACTUALLY WANT,

THROUGH UNION

Not continuing to play out and call in what I don't,

THROUGH SEPARATION.

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When the opportunity came to do work with a beautiful soul sister on aligning with my health and vitality, I noticed.

I knew the call in my body as I felt it a year earlier.

My body was in pain.

My body was screaming for me to listen.

I reached out and said yes, though wanted to honour the commitments I already had, as well as the journey I would be embarking on.

The renovations, house & relationship consumed.

My body started to ease once it settled and it was all done.

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I received the reminder and gave my body a pain/discomfort inventory.

My belly wasn't as swollen or in pain.

I felt pretty good. I knew this level of discomfort well.

It was 'normal' for me.

I now had the space in my life so of course, my body didn't have the same level of pain.

So I went to say NO.

My ego was trying to protect me and keep me small. I realised immediately thanks to my commitment to myself.

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I then TUNED into my body and it said something completely different.

It was saying LEAN IN.

IT'S TIME.

STOP PLAYING SMALL.

I realised just because my body wasn't in pain, my body wasn't screaming at me, that it was still requiring my attention and was still speaking to me.

It was asking more of me and I didn't have the capacity to hold the frequency.

My vessel wasn't being honoured as I desired and as I knew it deserved.

So I picked up my phone and said YES.

I simply trusted, allowed and have experienced MAGIC since letting go and allowing.

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Today, I made a similar decision.

It wasn't broken.

It wasn't even uncomfortable.

I felt seen, heard and held more than I ever have before.

However, I knew I could be settling as right now, it isn't MAGIC.

Just as it was with my body, I could have easily continued as it was and I would be HAPPY, content and it could have been good.

But as with my body, and every other area of my life,

I want the magic.

I know I can create and have the magic because I've created it many times before.

I'm literally living a MAGICAL VAN LIFE because I decided I could and I did.

So, as with my body, I had to decide.

I had to be willing to let go of the illusion of everything that is not magic, in order to create the reality of magic.

So I chose to witness the beauty and be honest with the illusion before me.

I chose to see the reality for what it is, not what it could be.

I chose to once again, CHOOSE MORE.

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I've done so much work on the story of NOT ENOUGH.

So much work on the beliefs and the things that held me back and kept me playing SAFE.

So much work on CHOOSING TO RECEIVE IT ALL, rather than just being happy with ENOUGH.

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Over a month in working with Nyssa Bovenkamp and the bar has been set.

The magic is real.

What is dropping in, aligning, connecting and amplifying is POTENT.

I'm CHOOSING ALL THE THINGS.

And thus today's decision had to be honoured for myself.

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We literally get to create our reality.

Some may think I'm crazy, (get in line).

Some may think I'm selfish, (there's a line for that too).

Some may think I'm being unrealistic and my bar set too high, (I'm getting the F out of those boxes).

I know MAGIC and the more I align with that frequency, stop old stories, stop giving anything a meaning, stop giving a sh*t what others think of MY decisions that DO NOT impact their life, and just ALLOW the FLOW to give and receive...

The more MAGIC I create.

Because I'm infinitely connected and my inner wise woman is deeply connected to it all.

She KNOWS.

Then my inner warrior gets to just show up, protect, stand firm and do the things.

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As I sit in this bath, holding myself in love and the deepest reverence for my body, my journey and my being,

I am grateful for everything that has led me here.

And I choose to let anything go that is not in alignment with the MAGIC of my heart.

I CHOOSE EASE & GRACE

I CHOOSE INFINITE MAGIC

I CHOOSE IT ALL & THUS ALLOW THE SPACE